I don't know if I have made progress, but then again it is always hard to see it when I see myself everyday.
"Watching you got me feeling blue."
I wish I could be like a vampire from the shows where we can just turn off our humanity.
Everyday I wish I could turn off my feelings all together.
This part of my story is about a close friend I have... they said they needed space and its been 3 weeks.
Last time something like this happened, it was another friend who didn't speak to me for a WHOLE MONTH LIKE WHAT THE FUCK?!!?
Another friend advise me to keep giving space for another 2 weeks so that it'll be a month... I just want to wish myself away, pretend I didn't exist... then I wouldn't have gone through all those broken friendships.
I think I am too much for people to handle. I have yet to find someone who can handle me... not even my siblings can handle me. Every keeps saying that people need space. But I have had space for SO LONG THAT I NEED INTERACTIONS NOW. Maybe everyone should go on a trip to a monastery and fucking meditate for 3 years by themselves and see how they feel after those lonely times.
I met a new friend and he's been great, but WAIT FOR IT! He doesn't wanna date me. lol
I am not saying death and money would help fix my life, but it would make it better.
