Changing

Apparently, I'm doing something wrong. I mean, I always do. I don't know how to be different. To be honest, I don't know who the real me is.

I need to change. I did, for a while.

I know who brings me back to a horrible past state of mind.

I know you say you still love me. But I'm afraid of when you'll stop. You've told me before that if I don't change... well you know what you said.

I'm so afraid.
I don't know what to do.
I feel lost.
I want to be able to love you forever.
I don't want to lose you.
I don't want to lose someone else who i truly love.
And I know I won't be able to love someone like this ever again.