Touched and bruised

When you're sexually assaulted, it makes you feel different.

I was shaking.
I felt like it was my fault.
Everytime I close my eyes, I see him.
I can feel his lips and tongue.
I remember where he put his hands.
My neck hurts.
I can see and feel everything from that night.

And it won't go away.
I can't get rid of the memory of the guy forcing and holding me against a wall.
I can't shake the thought, because there is evidence.
Its on my body.
Its stuck in my mind.

I have been crying every night, feeling dirty and numb. I have been seeing more nightmares than dreams. I am scared. I just want to go back home, I don't want to be away at school anymore.
I don't want to go out anymore.


I'm sorry.
Bye.
❤