So, sorry about my last post. I am okay, but people out there in the world probably don't care.
Anyway, when I love someone, I tend to be confused on everything I do. I fear that I'm messing up, even the little tasks. I fear that I'm not doing well in my relationship. Why? This question, I can answer. I have a huge fear of the unknown. Usually everything in general that I have no knowledge about. So, of course, I'm scared of my part in the relationship because I have never been in a relationship and I have no idea how to handle one.
But I am getting there, I think. I hope. I just need to observe or do research. I don't know, something!!
It's like having equal attraction plus giving your endless love and caring abilities to the other person. Right? And always being there, no matter what! I can do that. And there's another thing too...uh... be yourself? Yeah.
Maybe I am overthinking this. Someone once told me, many moons ago, that a relationship is a next level best friend, with kissing and occasional sex involved. I never had a best friend before either!! I had one when I was 5, but that soon disappeared. I just got a couple of friends last year when I started college, so yeah. Man, I've been alone for most of my life. Wait! I guess my sister is considered my best friend, but even then we don't really tell each other everything. Ugh!!! This is hard. I guess I just have to...WING IT!!
Well, it's about that time...this week my sister is coming to join me for traveling around Europe.
Right now, I don't feel like writing anymore. I've had this feeling before. I'm just not feeling well. I don't know when I'll be able to go back on the computer for the internet. I will use it for music or for Netflix, if it has something I haven't seen.
But for now, I'll be gone.
Bye
❤
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