Alarming

what is alarming anymore?
sex?
drugs?
naked people?
natural disasters?

I think something alarming for anyone is something they wouldn't think happen to them, eventually happen.
For example, someone who has a basic and mellow life. Nothing exciting, nothing drastic, just like plain Jane.

But when something does happen, the person reacts differently.

For me, it started when I was 9 years old and I experienced the first death in my family.
Then I was 18 years old when I was sexually assaulted in a club.
Somewhere in there, my mom got cancer. Don't feel sad, we're going through it and there's nothing anyone can really do.
At age 21, I gained a hater and her friends became my stalkers... I blocked her and it stopped.
Again, at age 21, I found myself being blackmailed for some lovely photos in exchange for information.

That last one, was shocking because I thought this person was my friend. At least I thought he was. He was actually lusting over me for 4 years and have been trying to make advances, but I was in a relationship at the time or I just didn't notice.
Now that I am single, I don't have excuses not to do something... or do I?
It really is a shame that men believe another male instead of listening to a female. Like how sad, you can't have a woman be right in a situation?
So, of course, I had to tell my "friend" that I am in a private relationship. (technically kinda true)
I went over to my friends apartment to hang, but also seek help.
Told my friend about this creep tryna blackmail me and he said, "can I send something?"
"Like tell him off?"
"Yeah, that cool?"
"yeah, go ahead"

And so the creepy "friend" listened to some dude on my snap rather than stop when I said I got something going on... like woooow!

That whole ordeal was very alarming because I really never thought someone would find me so appealing to go and try to get at me. Blackmail? Ha! No.

Anyway, now that I am so close to finishing school, going home, giving the finger to this stupid Uni, I feel like I can achieve anything!! Lol. nah... but I feel better that soon I will be going home and getting out of this place!


Peace.