Furious

YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU... still.

You don't understand how much you hurt me!
You don't know how much I put up with you... just like how you put up with me.
You don't know how much I feel for you and yet every time I try to forget you, I get a reminder on how it used to be.

I loved being loved by you.
I can't believe how it ended.
I can't believe this is how it is going.

I can be better.
You'll see.
I have gone through so much lately and I have kept it strong for myself.
I have looked myself in the mirror and told myself to keep going.

So that maybe one day I could go back home and look you in the face and be able to not care.

But... I do. I care so much.

I hate it! I don't know how I can't keep feeling like this!
I want to move on, but you are just... you.
I can't explain it.

I am caring for myself.
I am loving myself, slowly.

And I hope one day, you could love me again.



Peace.