You keep me calm

That's it. 
I yell in my head.

I need to meditate. I need to do something that keeps me calm.

Think of something. I say in my head.
Think of an event.
Think of him. 

Wow, that actually calms me.

Think of his eyes and how he looks at you. Think of his lips and how they move when he talks. Think of his smile when you stare for too long. Think of his arms and how they hold you tight when you hug. Think of how his walks  have a personality for different emotions. Think of how he smells with his lotion, cologne, and shampoo. 

Think of how much he loves you. 


Dang, this works. 

This is it. I say calmly in my head.