Never have I ever had this feeling.
But also, never was I ever this way, until I met you.
Your body, your face, your voice.... I crave it more and more each day I am away from you.
I keep adding photos to our shared album, but it never ceases to amaze me that in any of them, you look so fucking hot!
Even the dorky ones.
I don't know what is wrong with me.
I am not think with my head or my heart, I am thinking with my... you know what.
Has anyone ever been so attracted to a person you love that you want to do so many things with them??
In the end, even if we are cuddling and you pet my head... I would love it.
I am in my room typing this and on another tab is the photo album. It isn't good that I keep looking at one photo in particular and I have chocolate in my room. (It is said that chocolate is an aphrodisiac)
So I am doing my best to calm down and breathe slowly. Anyway, I don't think I have ever felt this pure lust for you in my whole time I have been with you. I know we are friends and I know we don't do things in public, only private. And that is fine!
What isn't fine is me wanting more of you, when I know damn well that I don't need you.
But right now, as I said before, I am not thinking with my head or heart, it is the other part of my body and I cannot contain this feeling for you.
It sucks and I want it to stop.
I think I'll go to bed now.
Peace.
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